Life can change on a dime, give me some fucking quarters so I can phone someone who cares!!!

I know it has been a while since I blogged and a whole lot of stuff has gone on since Vegas and to be honest I am not even sure where to start. So I guess I am just going to say this….. I seriously want off this roller coaster ride…or do I?
Firstly I should not be writing this blog when I am on my second bottle of wine and if I happen to finish writing and submitting it before my non alcohol induced brain has time to edit this blog then read it quick because I am probably going to edit it in the morning….that’s if I even remember that I fucking wrote it LOL!!

Anyway, like I said, I want off this roller coaster ride. I have decided that my discovery of sex and my quest for great sex might be a little out of control..or a lot out of control, who the fuck knows anymore. I mean really, it is okay for a guy to sleep with a different chick every night of the week, but fuck, if a girl does it then there is a problem….talk about double standards…the fuck I did not sleep with a different guy every night of the week, well almost not!! Actually what happened was I had sex with 3 different guys in the course of a week…..Really!! I am not sure how the fuck it happened but it did!!
Each experience was unique and different and while I do not regret any of them it did make me question what the fuck I was doing and why? I feel like there is two aspects here that I am dealing with, firstly I discovered that sex is actually pretty fucking good and why wouldn’t I want to keep doing it!! The other thing is sometimes I think I might be using sex to replace something that is missing in my life but honestly I cannot quite define just what that is. I know this last year honestly has been a fucker of a year and I have discovered that I really do not know how to be alone but not sure how the fuck I think I can resolve that with random sex!! Anyway like I said the random sex while fun and interesting is not something I feel like I want to continue although keeping a little black book does have an intriguing aspect to it…It is worth mentioning that MPrime is on the top of the list despite the fact that we have not had sex in forever!! He told me he is waiting in line….cheeky bugger!!!

So now if you have kept up with my blog you will know that in the first 50 years of my life I had sex with 2 people, both of them husbands and in the last 2 months of my life I have had sex with 6 different men. Seriously!! Holy mother who does shit like that??? What…you mean you only counted 5?
Lets see…M1, MPrime and the 3 in one week makes 5, yup that would be correct….I am not ready to talk about number 6 yet….Number 6 is the reason I am on my 2nd bottle of wine and the reason I want off this fucking merry go round!!

Anyway, my wine glass is empty so I am going to fill it up and post this blog before I change my mind, like I said read it quick because I am probably going to delete it in the morning…Ciao for now!!

 

 

 

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