So my readers it is exactly as I thought!!! The bald Casino dude IS married!!
Before leaving on my date I had every intention of paying for my own lunch, after all it is fucking expensive to eat out in Australia and I kinda sorta have this “A” type personality just a little bit that makes me wanna pay for my fucking self!! BUT when I noticed this dudes wedding ring, 30 seconds into the date I thought well fuck this shit!! I ordered an expensive glass of wine and a $25 salad!!….and I let him pay!!
So let me back up a little and say I am pretty pissed off at myself for not noticing his wedding band the day I met him, I mean really how fucking naive am I, it is not like I just arrived on this planet yesterday, men are the same the world over…America and Australia!! BUT… I forgave myself because my instincts were right on target when I said I thought he was married.
It is such a fucking shame because he was a really, really nice dude, we had a fun lunch with a lot of laughs and he is pretty fucking sexy with his nicely shaved bald head.
I was working my way up to asking about his wedding ring when he volunteered the information to me. He straight up told me of his situation and the fact that he is very unhappily married but that he is also financially encumbered in his marriage in such a way that the financial loss would be huge, almost devastating if he got out now and I believe him, he had no reason to be truthful about some stuff and lie about that.
So here is where my thought pattern started to go!! He is sexy and bald!! He looks fairly physically fit, he did not have bad breath, we had intelligent conversation, he has a great sense of humor, he mentioned several times that he found me incredibly attractive…AND he is emotionally and physically unavailable!! All of those things are check marks.
I started thinking hey maybe this is a great option for me!! I am in love with “The Captain” so I won’t have to worry about getting any pressure to take the relationship further or to have emotional connections, I could pretty much get sex when I am horny and if I am missing “My Captain” I can just call up the bald casino dude and ask him to come over so I can rub his head a bit!!
I kicked myself in the arse, ALL the fucking way home!! I mean FUCK!! I am NOT that girl and I am NOT about to be some dudes fucking side chick!!
While the thought of having a NSA relationship with someone who is not likely to pressure me for anything more is very appealing I simply cannot bring myself to be a party to someones choice to cheat on their spouse.
Don’t get me wrong, I am not judging him, he is a grown arse man and makes his own decisions and if he chooses to be unfaithful that is totally on him, I just don’t want or need to be involved in that!!
I literally had just finished typing the above sentence and he texted me, after a brief exchange of text messages I made a decision to meet him at the local “pokies” for a glass of wine and a discussion. It was already 10 pm and I have an early morning appointment so I told him just one glass of wine…Two glasses of wine and much discussion later I finally left.
Let me tell y’all it was fucking hard!! And yeah your mind can go in the gutter cause that was hard too, I felt it when he was kissing me!!
But what I mean was it was hard walking away!!
32 days… 32 Loooooooooong freaking orgasm free days… 32 days NO sex!! Seriously, 32 days of no fucking and I had the opportunity for a damned good shagging and my freaking morals fucked with my brain and I walked away…what the fuck!!
At least I got something out of it besides lunch…While he was kissing me at the car I got to rub his lovely bald head… A LOT!!! What can I say, it was a lot of kisses!!
Also not sure if I will ever see him or text him again but if I do, his new name is Shrek!! He showed me a picture of him and Shrek side by side pulling the same facial expression, it was pretty funny, so that’s his name!!
32 freaking sexless, orgasm-less days, who does that?!
Where for out thou Mon Bob? come out come out where ever you are!!